what do you want to be when you grow up?

so there's this movie called Horrible Bosses.
have you heard of it?

it's really good.
i laugh every time i watch it.. works wonders when i get period cramps.
heh..
but that's not my point.

one of the characters in the show.. he said, "When I grow up, I only had one wish.. and that was to be a husband."

now.
why do i ask what do you want to be when you grow up?
technically, at what age are we considered.. grown up?

i'm 25 this year.
that's a quarter of a century.

i have no house.
i have not much savings.

so.

wait.

i'm drifting away from my point.
.
.
.
.
.
.

sometimes i tell myself.
dammit, why can't i just be some superstar blogger and earn money off my blog.
then i will have this burning passion to post about shit for a day..
then i will actually forget that i have a blog the very next day.

sigh.

so i sometimes wished i had the ballz to become a YouTuber.
like damn, make videos, people will watch and you get to be a YouTube partner if you're big enough..
then again, i aint got the ballz to act and video and vlog and all that stuff..
it sounds harder than trying to produce 3D visuals for my clients.

most of you know..
i'm an interior designer.
i work from 10am to 12am.. sometimes.
most days i work from 10am to 9pm..
really depends on the urgency of a project.

i love my job.
i do.

today i was just casually telling my mom, "Oh, my friend's going to Thailand this month! His company trip.. He said he must go before he quits his job."
My mom said, "That's nice.. But why so kiasu?"
i told her, "His company very cham wan.. Have to work like cow and then can't handle project alone.. They only allow you to do 2D and then can't do 3D.. How to practice wor?"

she then said, "Wah, so cham wan ar.."
i replied, "YEAH.. our line damn pathetic wan.. gotta work so hard but the pay so.. so-so.."
she said, "Aish.. So you're considered very blessed already."
to which i replied, "Yes.. I'm very happy with my job.. and my work.. i get to go in late, dont really have to earn a company trip.. freedom at work.. bonus.. But Alex did say, cannot stay in your comfort zone for too long.."

then she answered, "But why not? If God did not ask you to close the door, why would you do it?"
to which i felt.. hey, that's true.
she then gave me another definition of COMFORT ZONE.

honestly, i did think once or twice that i might need a change of environment.. then i will think, but i'll never be able to find such good bosses anymore.

then it lead me to..
do i really wanna do this ID thing FOREVER?
i was telling Princess Jasmine that if my kid would wanna be an interior designer next time..
i think i will ask them to reconsider it.
when i applied for this course, i had NO one to tell me what it really was about.
how much of coordination we needed.

many people think ID, all the do is shift furniture, paint some walls and hang up a picture.
oh, it's is MORE than this.
but unfortunately, i wasn't expose to what it really was.
i thought all i had to do was play the Sims everyday.
hahahahahahaha..

oh well.
i've taken this path, i do love it.

actually i just have one point here..
WHEN DO WE SERIOUSLY GROW UP TO TELL THE WORLD, "When I grow up.. I want to be a.."

to me, i don't think that time will come.. cuz we change our decisions as we grow older.
today i want to be a blogger, tmrw a vlogger, the week after a superstar and then a month later a writer.

hahaha..
but an idea for a blog has been boggling in my mind for AGES.
i might just start it when i've collected enough materials.
we'll see which door God decides to open for me next. :)